addiction — Face It: Might As Well

Ring

“You discreet? I’m married on the DL.” Thanks, dude. If Cheaters ever returns on air, I can’t wait to be a blurred face running away from the site of our indiscretion with this song in mind.

Lyrics of the LoinsMatthew ChicolaDecember 16, 2019addiction, sex, sexuality, lgbt, gay, homosexuality, no homo, matrimony, cheat, cheater, adultery, covet, lyric, lyrics, song, creative, creativity, discreet, married, swingerComment

Beard

Things are getting a bit hairy here. Winter is coming on strong, and my best defense is sprouting to keep me safe and warm, but how long will it be before I can’t place the face peering back at me? Just the thought of it makes me bristle.

High ThoughtsMatthew ChicolaNovember 13, 2019beard, masculine, masculinity, toxic, man, lgbt, gay, homosexual, poem, poetry, addiction, marijuana, pot, write, healing, heal, spiritual, creativity, creative, energyComment

Sweet Beginnings

Too soft for Penthouse. Too hard for Bon Appétit. I’m not sure where this sweet story fits as it swirls on the tongue, ready to be released. Perhaps a lick off the top will do me good; I just can’t match that rush.

Sweet SmutMatthew ChicolaJuly 23, 2019sugar, sex, smut, erotica, sweet, addict, addiction, story, sugarbeet, bdsm, sexuality, sugar high, heart, fun, funnyComment

A Great Fall

Yep…it will be like entering into a black hole to try and explain this one. I’m not sure if the wonky stars dancing around my head are even bright enough to find the end of this excerpt. Who will put me back together again?

High ThoughtsMatthew ChicolaJuly 17, 2019poem, poetry, existential, fall, hospital, high, write, creativity, creative, addiction, log, addict, marijuana, potComment

Orange is the New Masc

Is it playtime already? Based on the excitement I’m seeing on the screen, all nipples (and other parts) are pointing to an emphatic "Yes!” When “Right Now” correlates with the rising of the sun, who can stop the orange mask in its filtered tracks?

What Did You Do?

The webs I weave…I wish I could be more patient, like a spider. When I begin to spin for control, though, it always twists and turns into chaos. Then, I’m wrapped up in shame with no one else to blame but myself. Ugh…

Lyrics of the LoinsMatthew ChicolaJuly 3, 2019sexy, sex, sexuality, lgbt, gay, web, addict, addiction, touch, scent, domination, submission, dominant, sub, dom, m4m, song, lyric, lyricsComment

Stepping In

Will it be door number 1, door number 2, or door number 3? If I choose correctly, the truth may be revealed on the other side. Or it might just be a series of more doors, more choices, more mistakes, more doubts…oh boy. I’ve really stepped in it this time.

High ThoughtsMatthew ChicolaJuly 3, 2019poetry, dimensions, poem, high, addict, addiction, pot, smoke, smoking, weed, door, portalComment

Hovering on the Edge

How high can I go? Do the words flow easier when I’ve taken off into the clouds or does that make more thunder rumble? Every cloud has a silver lining, let’s see where the edge of this one takes me.

High ThoughtsMatthew ChicolaJuly 3, 2019poetry, poem, writing, write, high, marijuana, pot, drug, drugs, smoke, addict, addictionComment

The Push and Pull

As my heart reaches for the pen, my hands reach for my…I don’t know if this lyrical project to overcome any and all sexual addiction will result in any music from the heart; still, I stand firm in my resolve to unload.

Lyrics of the LoinsMatthew ChicolaMay 27, 2019song, lyrics, sex, masturbation, sex positive, porn, addiction, sexuality, addict, lyric, writing, writerComment

Cloudy Day

When the clouds roll in, the clouds puff out. In my first attempt at poetry, I freestyle in hopes of bringing the light to my life. Is that a skunk? No, just part of the current creative process. The sun will come out tomorrow, though, right?

High ThoughtsMatthew ChicolaMay 27, 2019poetry, writing, write, writer, cloud, sun, sunshine, lgbt, addiction, marijuana, smoke, smoker, pot, imagination, creative, creativityComment